The substance that sustained~Like Forever~ 1

Mush Mash~ Huhuhu~ Hehehe~ Hahaha~

Just wanna thank those that upheld me in my times of super downness~For your never-ending love and encouragement~ Thanks yeah really..Hehe~

The Reward awaitsssssss$~ Limau Ais =P...(Low budget) =P

After 20 years of breathing, I can say ....Bagus!~ To life.... It really is one of the best things that ever happened.. Not only those sweet times and blessings that I am happy about but more towards those times of shaping me through those tough tough times...Yesss~ It is those times that , you were looking around, but nobody seems to be there, and the times that you questioned 'Does God exist?'...

Those are the times I cherished very much because it made me who I am~...

And I believed with all my heart it form You to be who you are...

~Remember yeah, that nobody can judge you for who you are~!

Okay back to the blog =O.... (I sure do talk many many things ain't I? hehe)...

Ever thought to yourself like, why do we even live?? I mean like I've heard quite some ppl telling that life is so pointless today because everything I have will not be mine forever... True enough~..

Life can be very pointless if anyone would think that everything we have is temporary only...

Then what is forever?????~

Ooo~ You ppl that went through those tough times...I believe there is only two final results that will be produced after some tragedy happens...

1) You get super bitter and you hate... Hate this and that and everything...for everything... Nothing wrong in that, but don't ya feel tired at timesss to always have to blame and to be bitter?...Because I do...~

The only thing that sustained me like forever, is the other result....The result of Love~...

Woosh~And how can like love be forever?....

When my dad felt from the roof, when my mum left, when all seems to fail... I believe that one of the only thing that kept me moving is the love I had...~ for others that will also go through this 'hell' of life..~ To know that there are others that are worst and that others who in any day could experience such instant hurt and emotional distress... I continued to live for them..~ In those times...when hurt seems most inevitable, love is the only thing that sustains.. Not the things I have..Not even money..~

You know when ppl say...'Yer, love? What could it do?' or like 'Love is Gay' =P...Well those are the products of hate... If you listen closely to the words and the heart... Doesn't it sounds very bitter to you? A person that has given up loving..~and choose to hate, hoping to forget what has happened..~

So you!~ Let's try loving...Perhaps you could learn to love your life first for everything that happens and not have any resentment towards it...Perhaps you could learn to love your family or your friends for their constant support to you, even if you may rejected them with the thoughts that they never understand...

It makes a lot of difference, really....

Because if it does not I'd be hanging myself a long longgg time...

And to my stepmum, my brothers, and family and friends who loved me so much that they hold my hand through these tough times...That is everything to me...And a solid proof..That even in the darkest of dark times...Love is there to support us always..~

Love life!Be encouraged!!!!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

Remembering you...

Phew...What's with me and blogging, man....The sudden 9 9 revival...xp.

Once a junior told me..In his super awesome wonderful slang...' I can get any girl I want'... Then, I was like wow...( Because undoubtedly, he definitely can get any girl he wants )...Then I ter-asked him, ' Can you keep those girls that you have then?'... And then there was like superbly awesomeness silent...

I think maybe the best thing to address in this generation is the issue of break-ups... In some point of my life, I thought that, Hey!First time relationship is like totally impossible... Well, I don't really know now but I think it is possible hehe~ The most common and deep hurt is that of break-ups...

Remember those times when (if) you were with someone so special to your heart and the very thought of it that the person now don't ever belongs close to you anymore... Well, allow me to speak for all...It sucks as hell =P... No one in any sane possible mind are fully okay with a break up. Even if it is a good bf or bad bf or good gf or bad gf or lalalalala~...

It never pleases anyone when a break up happens..Even if either side says that it is the best for them or themselves...

I'm no healer of break-up...and I believe that there are times where it is inevitable for break ups to happen...

And yes, in many many times, I struggled a lot in the issue of past emotional hurts.. And I know many who in their own way feels the same. It is NEVER easy to overcome that feeling.

Often time I think what can best replace love is Hating the person you used to love. Its the easiest way to forget someone by finding a reason to hate... It's incredibly easy...Just that it's an awesomely cheap way to cover up such precious things shared (unless you're dating a rapist =P)...

What do we expect of love and relationship?

Why do we love a person ?

I think that hurt we felt during the break-up results because of what we think of love.. Maybe we should stop expecting so much??Sometimes we expect just too much even when the relationship have long ended...And again and again those unrealistic expectation disappoints us always..

It is very hard I know to recover after such emotional trauma..and honestly nobody can understand you better than yourself during those times. It is annoying at times when ppl would tell you to, 'just move on lah' without considering the situation, but again be reminded always, that...they meant good for you =)...

Sometimes ppl may not understand.. Sometimes they will say 'Time will heal everything'... and they left and it seems like you are the only one in this never-ending battle...But, do understand that it is very hard as well to comfort a broken-hearted people. The fact that they even come to you and tells you that 'Time will heal everything' is a sign that, Hey!they cared =)...Might not be in a way they want, but at least they tried for you ya know...

So, you broken hearted ppl, cheer on always yeah...

Choose not to stay in being sad (although at moment it's important to cry) and move on always =)

And always remember, no one can understand you as much as yourself can,

So do not be offended when you are judged by others for being sad , but also remember because of that, people finds it hard as well to comfort you the way you want it until you speak up! =)

An elder of mine once said...

'Crying is a good healing tool'...hehe~ I believed that....

Cheer on always..and remember that ppl cares...for you...Yes YOU!!!!

Love life!Be encouraged!!!!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

To my mum~Who in many ways inspired my all.!

Phew...Had a 100 meter run to work today...~That was like..Crap!!!!Hehe~But it gave me a great sleep after that...We were late for the shuttle bus u see...=0 Therefore, run we should!!~

It's a great day today..To laugh..

To sleep...

To relax..

=) It has been quite some time since I had a feel good evening...(fyi it's 3 now)..

It's also a Great Great Day to Miss Mum!!~

Well,

ever since the divorce, things are awfully quiet at home...

Well I will never say that the divorce that happen many years ago is a good thing, but I can never deny the fact that...It made our family closer...=)...of course with the exception of my dad and mum you see..~

It's been a while..

Everytime when I would go to the supermarket, I remembered my mum....Who loved us three sons so much, she would FORCE us to buy some snacks for ourselves haha...~What can I say>Mum's knows best!~ Well the three of us brother is kinda like those pai-seh type. Even if got ppl give one million dollar to us we will say no a million time =p..But our mum knows best =)!

There's a lot of time when during and after the divorce we misunderstood a lot about our mum..and that I really am sorry for that =(... Maybe we were also going through hard times =( ...But nonetheless, our mum is always first in our heart and we know with all our heart that we are also numero uno at her heart =p..

So yeah...

To our mom!

Muakssss!!!~

Thanks for everything =)

Rejection!!~

After a very super cun-ted weekend, it has come again to that time of the week, where I would wake up early and face the computer for like 8 hours zzz...But hey it taught me a lot to learn to be 'konnonya' submissive and most importantly hardwoking!!!...hehe~ If anyone knows me well enough he/she should know amongn everything, I'm the most lazzzyyyyy and lovesss procrastinating...~But I hope by days I'm learning to change...!

It's been a very tiring week last week, physically and even more emotionally...I think I'm having depression haha~like seriously!!!Randomly, I would feel superbly down... Then in like the next minute, I was like hyperly super active... Maybe I have bipolar...or AD/HD...or.....lalalalala~Unstable feelings in my heart always..!

But last week, I noticed quite some many things that seems..appealing!..You know sometimes there were times when not only tragedy would bring you down in life...It is all those little little cumulative disappointment in life.

Just wondering for anyone would read this.. I've been pondering as to why ppl would change..as in from believing in something good to the opposite..~

It's quite bitter when a person puts his whole heart and soul to do something and only to find out that when he returns to celebrate with his closest ones, they weren't there to even say thanks or worst, even ignoring him. Sometimes its like this ya know in life...When previously we have done so badly in life and then we decided to 'turn over to a new leaf', but there was no one even there to acknowledge the tough battle and struggle. Or when we have done something so preciously,with effort and just been shown a cold shoulder despite the trouble...Now that's crappy ain't it?...

At many times, when we went through such things, we would feel as though there is totally no point to continue on doing what we would do, and rather better to do things that might get attention such as drawing out from a crowd, or isolating yourself, or doing 'deviant' stuffs!~ Only to find out that, Hey,that joker who did not acknowledge me previously now is freaking judging me...

Hmm sad huh~?..Maybe that's how life is when we look it from a very discouraging point of view..Allow me to break the ice~!hehe~...

We will always hope for ppl to accept us for who we are by what we do at most of the time. When our boss would not acknowledge our work..When our friends would not accept us...When our parents would complain about our test results...When our spouse would compare us... These are all times when we are rejected and told indirectly that you are just not good enough...

The truth is...There is exactly no time that you can please everyone...Even at times do remember that there are times that you can never please anyone at all!~...Because that's life and until we get a very firm grip of that reality, we're still gonna struggle to get ppl's favour and attention ya see... I understand the pain of being overlooked of your effort.

So why do we continue doing the good stuff we are doing despite knowing this then>?I'll leave that for you and your consciousness to figure out....Hehe~Because I struggled as well to answer to myself why am I doing good things for ppl who never want to appreciate it....May you continue to find the answer that will encourage you...

That will encourage you to love even more...to care for ppl that never cared about you before..to hold their hands of those who abandoned you unexpectedly..to care and to concern for those who took advantage over you...

That, my friend, is when you would understand that the joy of loving is much more than that of gaining recognition for all the works we've done...

Do try it yeah...

Even when ppl tell you it's not worth it..and hating is the easier way.Just try it...You'll make a difference definitely =)...

You know also, that the best thing happens when we never expected for acceptance and then when we were accepted..Holy-moly..that's the best feeling like ever.Period...hehe

Do look at the bright side always yeah... If you know enough, life is never one easy road, but it's worth doing a difference with what we can even if people know it or not...=)

Love life!Be encouraged!!!!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

LuLuLu~~~

Boredness running through my blood...~

So I decide to share some personal things in this not-many-ppl (if there even is) that read this blog of mine XD...

Even after one year and 5 months after my dad's accident, there's always flashback ya know, and unpleasant memories.. First because I came from a broken family and next is because of the sucky accident... So yeah, its kinda of a struggling to live everyday...

Being the only son in then house apart from my step mum stresses me out everyday with house works and responsibility, and yesshhhhh many time its really on the edge...

Funny eh?...When ppl is in their most terrible moment, ppl around us will judge us even more instead of offering a helping hand... I was very bitter because of ppl that are constantly criticizing my life and the way I took care of my dad...Well Many time I wish they would Shut the hell Up..>~ For real~ =P... Forgive my rudeness...

It was hard and still is...and many times I wonder why am I still taking care of ppl around me when I cant even take care of my own...

Well when would it end??hehe~ God knows/...

But will stand strong though in this world of gazillion discouragement....

Love life!Be encouraged!!!!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

If God was real, then He must be sleeping?? (or is He even real?)

Back to...Blogging hohoho~ still in Hp as always, but slightly more hardworking today..As in really hardworking yeahhhhh~hehehe~ I actually called ten customer in half an hour!!! Praise me Praise Me!!!XD

Often time people always have this question when they are in problem....Where is God??????.....

And its often link to the problems of this world... A very common question..If God is real why does He allows sufferings?or why does He allow bad things to happen to good people =)...

Bear in mind, No...I'm not gonna argue about this and proof with all my might that God really does exist..But allow me to speak more as a HUMAN BEING going through tough times... =P...

The truth is when my dad had an accident last year I was just as confused as anyone would be...

Think about yourself...When you went through that difficult-est moment.... Life surely is hard at that time and nobody can ever define that moment for you... To some extend you may think perhaps God won't understand you as well...

Well hehe~ I do not have the answer to everything ya see...I was just as confused as you... Be it I'm a Christian or not...

But I do notice that not everyone that comes from a divorced family ends up as a useless person,

I also noticed that...

Not all people who lost their father ends up as gangsters..

Not all people who lost their mother will hang themselves...

Not all people who lost a best friend will blame God or anyone as well..

Not everyone who went through breakups will hold every memories they had as a burden...

I do not understand..Hehe sadly...

Maybe none of us would...

But I just want to encourage you that, just because something might happen to you or your loved ones, you musn't need to be like one of those people that end up bad as a result of the circumstances or tragedy...

Be encouraged always with the success people had when they were in their lowest point!!!~ Because they went through a deal of hurts and confusion as well...~

Choose to live and stand up despite all those things that brings you down!~

So at anytime you are hurt and sad....Be encouraged...! Choose to live and not hold anything back in your heart! =)

Love life!Be encouraged!!!!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

Chains of discouragement...Domino!!!!XD

I'm back hoho~Blogging=I'm working at HP....XD...(Strictly no comments!!!!)

I've heard before of a 'kononnya' proverb, that it takes ten encouragement to cover up one discouragement....I think honestly if you would pass through the age of 20, you should know by then that it is more of a reality to say that we can never get ten encouragement a day...It's actually more of a ten discouragement per HALF an encouragement a day =P...!

Come on let's not deny it, the things we've heard and the problems we've faced... It's just mightily hard to stand up and feel happy every moment..

When you would go to work, or you're at home, there are always things that would...PLOP!!! and discourages you...

And as much as you are feeling happy and joyful, some jokers nearby would just...PLOP!!! and discourages you again...

But hey, I think, maybe the best way to feel encourage ya know is to encourage others....

I've heard before of a brother of mine mentioning... that (haha!) Linkin Park new song has meaning as compared to last time and that many fans do not like LP anymore..(which in a way true)....

And I think it's very obvious that people tends to stay negative ( I mean like soooooo negative ) rather than positive..

Last few weeks when I was in the psychiatric ward with a sister, believe it or not, most of the patients are very much like us... From their looks and their outward appearance and the way they would speak resembles very much like us. But it's what they speak that totally sparks my interest....

The thing I kept hearing was.....'How to be okay?'...or like 'Cannot cure one la'....

Don't that sound very similiar to you when you're at your most defeated moment, or moment of 'epic' depression XD...

Because thats how we are when we are sad...We look at the negative rather than positive...When a doctor would tell u that you are okay, you will doubt that the doctor is wrong... ~Which I would also do haha!...

I know it is very hard...Awesomely hard to step out of being sad and the feeling of anger and defeated...I've been there before. You've been there before..

But I rather see it as being courageous... As being courageous to step out of your self-pity...

Being strong and not holding anger in the heart...

Being firm but not boasting of the problem...

Seriously....Don't you really find people who would step out of their sadness as Highly Courageous...Mature...and respectful..

A lot of people fail ya know??

So why not let's take the first step and say a no to sadness pulling down our lives...

Let's be different from others..

We'll stand up and say no to sadness dragging us down...=)

And I'll pray that you will feel a difference when you're trying...because you definitely will!

It will be hard, honestly...

A lot of time for me as well, when I would encourage others, I myself felt very tired and weak in the inside because it seems as though it is of no difference whether I encourage or not...But one of the greatest joy I had is when people would tell me that they are really encourage even just a little..So I believe to heal yourself, you might want to try healing others...You'll be shock that the smile of another person for you is much more effective than your own smiles....For real =P...

However,becareful of not being discourage yourself.

A brother of mine once told me something very encouraging and he gave me a piece of a very (sangatlah teramat) great advice...

And it sounds like this....

'Get some rest.....' HAhahahaha~But it meant a world to me...Because often time when we would only look at other's problem ......we only will feel utttttterrrrrllllllyyyy EFFFFING discouraged =P...for real...And there was a point in my life and still that I feel a lot of thing would discourage me (be it problems of mine or others)..and I know that there are times when I should get some rest and so should you...So as to prevent the DOMINO effect =)... Because yes....other people's problem can as very well affect you (or worst)..

Hehe~thanks for reading again after so long disappearing...

If there would be anything for you to remember is that...

Healing would need time....

Love should never turn to anger...

Love never fails....

Love life!Be encouraged!!!!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

Jack of all trades,but sadly..master of none..

Huhu…look like blogging is my next best friend X)…it lets me say all I want without anyone having to put masking tape on my mouth!...HEHE…

Well yeah, I remember at one time someone told me I love to chuckle on the phone.At first it was funny but sooner or later when friendship when longer, that person told me, ‘Hey!You like to ‘tersengih’ on the phone rite?’ haha…after that not much call were made anymore xP!

But nyways, yeah it’s a bad habit to ‘sengih-sengih’ on the phone but what is there to do as it is in my blood!..hehe~~Thank God for many ppl who can stand my ke~sengihan when I talk to them (One of the most patient is my mother!)But wont it be great if I really can overcome such bad habit??wont’t it be great if what we thought we could not do, after all we could?..

Hehe I always remember a phrase and I quote what many ppl says when there is a barrier in front of us, ‘If you believe in yourself anything is possible!!!’Huhu…sounds so positive!Sounds so so amazing and fair enough most of the time when we believe it really does HAPPEN!!!!...

You name it, cigarette smoking, gambling, cursing, etc etc etc….Anything (logic) that we thought we could not overcome could be overcome…

It’s amazing isn’t it when we could overcome a ‘Mission Impossible’! but, really…

When it comes to the matter of the heart,many of us are fatigue.Fatigue from the inside out..And I wonder why?

I have many ppl whom I know coming from various background. People who are physically tough, weak,tall, strong, happy, joyful, ( and the rest u can play hangman to figure out the characteristic hehe~~ ),but not many who can really stand up during tough time and say that “I’m okay”.. And for the obvious we know why…

Many of us are really but just house ceilings..Full and satisfied in the outside but in the inside are void…And when a tragedy or something unpleasant happened we are quick to blame…Quick to despair and most of time quick to give up… Now having all those puny little achievement wont do much right??hehe~~ sounds so depressing if only u think of it as it is…

What am I really getting here? Where am I really going to?

The only little point in this whole blog is just one….SUFFERING IS SUFFERING…Nothing can compensate the pain of it. No achievement we have can even take a single second of the pain. And nothing you can do can allow you to run away from it.Of course you may have some fun and this and that to forget it,but where can you go so as to forget about it??

Don’t run away from pain.Dont try to degrade your suffering.In fact, Don’t even bother to put down other ppl’s suffering and say “It’s nothing” , because those (what we call nonsense from God) are something that will and must teach us of life to come and it’s problem..

Yes, you may argue that true friends must stick for each other. That is absolutely true as I have wonderful friends to support me along the way through those dark times. But Supporting and Negating the problems are two different issue we should remember always..

A true friend will always support one another but never negates or play dummy about the truth…Because those are what tat matters the most..Those hard times are a license for life and if you would believe, for the next life as well.

So stay strong always because sufferings and hard times are just for a moment...and always as long as you keep breathing those times are passing away quick X)..

Love life!

-Because it's worth doing so-

-Foldforever-

In support of anti-suicide!X)

Suffering at my left Despair at my right, everywhere I look, there is Never a daylight..Or IS IT?

Back again!!!wee...To this almost dead blog?but no...it would not end here!huahua!...

A question I would like to ask everyone would be, 'Do you think you are a good person?'...

And many would answer yes or dont know (or no just for being humble sake)..But fair enuf, many of us consider that we are fairly good enough on the line not to do any super duper wrong things like KILLING ....etc etc.

But maybe that's why many of us feels that we deserve a wonderful and glorious life..Be it whether whatever background we came from we would always think that when something so severe comes to us, we never deserve such problem..I wont touch upon any of this issue from a religious point of view but...All in all, we know deep in our heart that we never ever ever deserve what we get..X)

And maybe..just maybe we dont really deserve it..Maybe, just maybe God made a mistake. Maybe luck was just not on our side..Or maybe NOT?

One of em' pain that many of us ignore but fear most is that of somebody we loved pass away..Hehe, of course even I do have that fear BEFORE. And yes, it's beyond describable. And not many can take the pain fairly..Clouded by uncertainty and fear, it really brings a lot of suffering and despair in our soul...That is when we are too focused with what will bring us down rather than that that will bring us to a better benefit...But surely you would say that I'm crazy for saying that there are benefits suffering and all the more when we are talking of someone we love passed away..Fair enough, sounds absolutely absurd for saying such thing...(ppl would say CHOI!) X)

But really,

Just so that all of us know we are not the only one that will have our loved ones pass away. We can always learn from what we suffer and those mark left behind by the one we love will always remain in our heart..

Suffering is something very painful when we lost someone, but what we always fail to notice is that we have to go through what we need to go through..And what we go through during those hard times, are what that will make others strong..

If we could only understand, how precious are those we lost dearly, we would really tell of others how much more they should appreciate their loved ones..

And with what we lost dearly,

We could bless others by reminding them tat life is SHORT!

Losing someone or going through tragedies or maybe as simple as breakups may mean the end of the world for you..But, so long as you keep your feet up and walk, the pain are just fading away and pretty soon, you can stand up and say , ' I had went through that before and I made it through '.

Sounds ridiculous?....Hmm....Maybe for those whom life seems happy go lucky for now may think its pretty simple, but we let the pain speak for itself when things turn around.

And until then for those whom had feel the pain should support them even if they had put you down right?..Because none of us deserve more than what we should have already and there is no need to further anyone's misery X)....

Life is suffering, But at the end of the day as long u'r still breathing, as long u'r still walking,You know very much that the time is almost over for pain,and Joy itself comes with a loud noise X)...Stay Strong!

-Foldforever-

In support of Anti-suicide!!!!

Huahuahua!

Life being lonely>>AM I ALONE???!

Thinking today and the life I had,all the days that I lived, I often asked myself why do I still smile and still maintain being happy on the outside but having a messed up life everyday as soon as I opened my eyes.I wonder why>?

Maybe I just got too much hormone and maybe life is just like that for me?hmm I wonder hehe~~…

But things for me are just not like what it seems on the outside.Yes,it’s true, God blessed me with a happy heart and that what I need in my studies He blessed me (that why sometime ppl hate me and called me ‘Smarty’ because I study little yet excelled a lot).But really what it is me on the outside,my achievement,my success are really not the things I needed..I may need it years ago but not now.

I always think back and wonder why does ppl only see the happy side of me but nvr tried to know in-depth of me being sad..And it gets me thinking I’m living all alone on myself and that expecting help from ppl is totally absurd, let alone to mention idiotic.

For years, my mindset had been rock solid upon the foundation of not expecting pity and anything from anyone because no one tried to understand the burden..but when I stopped and think back everything,THE HECK…I’m not the only one having problem herrre ok!

Yeah it’s true…

When I’m sad my mind only gravitates of loneliness and the need of being pitied…

But I looked and see around,

My neighbour had her husband undergoing cancer treatment and left with a few months to live.And yet here am I thinking everything will go well..and from the outside,it does look so until I discovered myself it really is not from what it seems..

My friend lived a happy life and many frens surrounded him cause he really is friendly and he cares for his friends very much.But one day I discovered that he kept all the problem from us and that days after days he was struggling to find true friends..I mean how the heck in the world could I see that when he was the center of attention and yet still feeling inadequate of true friends..but when I looked at him, I know what he was going through is for real…and I thanked God because he is recovering, slow but for real

Another close friend of mine looks absolutely cool and friendly on the outside.She’s the most cheerful person in fact that I’ve known and met and she really has a wonderful character.But one day she told me that she asked why is it still that she must live if life is so darn stressful and not to mention, stressful beyond words..At times she despairs very much about life as well but the same reason praised God for she had recovered..

What am I getting here?It’s so simple but yet undeniably complicated…None of us really know each other problem…

Yes we may feel awfully lonely when we are going through the deepest problem in our life..But really asked yourself this (because I asked it to myself often)…If really someone understood you very well, what could he/she do so much as you could be ‘all of a sudden’ happy?

I could think of none…

Don’t ever give up if things are really low..All quite things will be loud eventually and all Loud things will eventually end up quiet.In as much as skies are filled with fireworks,the clouds will be visible again..

Being lonely is common when we are alone…But yeah…It doesn’t mean that you must be miserable for it..You can always talk to someone…XD

Because life is like that when we have problem..

It always is blurry and cloudy,

Until we really learn how to appreciate and love it

LOVE LIFE!

(because it’s worth doing so!)

-In support of Anti-suicide!-

Foldforever!

Life is FUN!!!!but it also spells S-U-F-F-E-R-I-N-G...

wOO..Just reached work after lunch time!Just to find out,as expected,that my Outlook cant be accesed...Had a freaking tough day taking my dad to hospital.Xp

Nyways,life is life right?...Hmm yeah I had some fun time especially when my bro's are back.We will go all 'gila gila' especially when we are young...I will reveal to you some of the 'notorius' actions and 'perilaku' we have done huahua..When i was small,more or less like bout ten>or maybe more..hehe, we always do a lot of funny things at home...one such is I use to 'wrestle' with my elder bro.YEP ITS ELDER NOT ELDEST! so u know who it is XD..(I'll get to the eldest soon)..!Nyways, yeah as I were saying me and my elder bro used to wrestle on the bed when we were young.At one time, we wrestle even till the glass broke!haha...My elder brother was trying to do a tunt by 'Kane' (Chokeslam) and I try to avoid but hit the glass and it broke...and the worst part is,my dad is on the way home....So,anxious and full of 'kegelabahness', when my father return home he asked y!of course we wont tell him we wrestle! I forgot what we told em' but it ain't anything near wrestling!!!Lol... but it was a memorable time for me though it's painful!

Even before my eldest bro went for his first day to the camp, we would play football in our house...YES!!!not outside,not beside...INSIDE! and what we use for our goal post??you wont want to know...(offensive for some religion!)XD...Nevertheless, yep broke a couple of things along the way here and there..but at the end of the day, Life is fun!...

Years went by ahead now but memories are fresh as always and living life now, of course we will miss those days..and of course we will want for those sweet times we had with our family,friends,spouse..blablabla..to never end...But, really you and I know, life is not as sweet as ever..Em, A majority of us would ask God Why?why this and that happen...why not this and that happen instead?...I can never get a full answer from God for that...not till this day still that I'm writing this..But really, asking God is never a wrong thing to do, but dont ever expect an answer..maybe not even in this life..or maybe the next.

Hmm, I think to myself and I know..past is past..happy was I then, and for now,it is still my choice...to choose whether I'm happy or not,it's only my right to decide...and the hell I will ever let anything to ruin my life XD...

Well maybe,..yes, when things are down and life seems hopeless,we will miss those happy times and we will shed tears over crave for them...If you asked me why things turn like that and why God can be so 'cruel', I cant answer you..but I always remember one thing...As long as I keep breathing, I know I will get over it and as long I'm still moving,within a blink of an eyes,i will say to myself again,'I can actually do better than that', after everything is over...

Don't ever give up in life!suffering is always a sign for joy to come and joy is always a sign for suffering to come...that's life!

-IN SUPPORT OF ANTI SUICIDE!!!-huahuahua!

-Foldforever-

Love and appreciate life!

(because it's worth doing so)

Loving life as it really is...

In everyone, there is always a wish or a hope for something to occur...We may wake up every morning wishing for the same thing to occur but often time it does not...sniff sniff...It does not matter who we are, whether ur a Buddhist, Christian, Muslim, etc..we have a wish or a hope...

Take for me example,(guinea pig betul)...

I always have a wish for ...hmmm to learn Chinese??haha...but it never occur (due to my laziness)..my bad..alright lets focus again. Some of us may hope and wish for something unrealistic, however some of us may hope for something that is just simple...but it just never come true..Love it or not, most of the 'shopping' list we have just was not fulfilled!and we ask GOD!!!!!WHYYYYYYY...

or if we're an atheist we would point the finger to?(i dunno...but i know it will be everyone else except ourselves).

and life just got bitter...life just...doesn't spark out like how it used to be...

those sweet times that u went through are all just a reminiscence that are yet to fade.and it will as much as we deny it..in the face of bitterness we tend to look at everything else...everyone else...except...the positive side...

Then, there are two ways to ,if i may call it,'temporary solution' to the heartache.

Well obviously,one of them is to sealed up the pain in the heart and erupt a volcano to the ppl we love most.

or the second, we called it 'emo' ppl, which just talk about doomsday in their life all day long and how they are not willing to live anymore...

but really, how much complain can we pour in a cup to fill our body?...Really for 19 years I've been complaining on every single thing in my life..I told God, He was blind..If He really was God then why?...I hate life so much and it seems that nothing has ever come true for me ( I mean my hope and my wishes hehe..)

And it just got bitter for me, all day long, with troubles piling and cumulating in my soul..Who was I then in the face of trouble>?

I'm sure u felt this frustration,this agitation if you may. I'm sure that life at one point or still at it that you are facing or already face problems that just never seem to go..it may be, someone passed away,may be your crush leaving you, may be a divorce or anything...

But i asked...will it ever end?...Obviously my heart say yes...BUT THE CIRCUMSTANCES ALWAYS SAYS NO...(as always Xp)

So what am I really getting here?..hmm I'm a Christian and thank God for it.but really just because I am one,doesn't mean I have a ticket for a perfect no problem life...and I'm sure every other religion as well believing in God feels the same too.

In as much as life sucks,which most of the time it is, there is always a positive in it.

what is good about it???....THINK YOURSELF!!!!XD

I can tell you all the bads and the no's in life..but i cannot smack into your brain what is right and good,because,learning it is from living in those bad times...So I would leave all the painful learning for you!! XD

And if ever you think of suiciding (I was there a lot of time), always remember only the living have hope and those in the grave does not.

All my life I can sum it up like this by the things I learn, Everybody can complain, but nobody appreciates'.

May u be blessed when u read this Xd

LOVE LIVING TO THE FULLEST!

(because it is worth doing so)

-FoldForever!-

My first new blog!

Hoho...hi everybody...em provided if somebody's looking at my senseless and purporseless blog...nyways this is actually my second blog..dunno where my first one terbang dy...

em, basically i just create this blog for fun but i think hey,God provide umpteen time for me so why not share my heart (fuiyooo) with others and what others think about what i think XD.em....why loving life?...

hmm i believe many of us at least once in our live complain about being alive..many of us complain about everything that is what we see as 'bad' or 'unprofitable',(which includes myself)...but to think again should not we really appreciate our lives...em as easy words can be all of us know that action speaks louder than words...soooooo....come along with me as we,with hopes, rediscover again the wonders and the worthiness of the lives we live..Who knows God willing you may be changed..It doesn't matter what religion u'r from or what race u may be...either way, we are all one just rediscovering life...

Peace be with u!